Float Away

I want to carry you with me

Everywhere I go

Through the narrow abandoned streets

Through the flooded trains

Through the vast infinity of space

I want you to see

What I see...

How

Iridescent

 The ocean is

How lyrical the rain forests are

How seamless all of humanity is

I want you inside of me

At the very center of my core

In every breath I breathe

In each particle of me

In the wind that brushes past me

I want you to be my testimony

For everything I ever was

Or ever would have been

For I want to empty myself

Of each grain of thought

Of every thread of emotion

I want to float away one day

Knowing that

I gave as much as I took

And may be a little more.

The Mistress

You were there last time

To hold me together

When my world collapsed

And the gloom relapsed.

I came to you…

With teary eyes and sorrows untold

Not knowing what to do and who to hold.

Enveloped in your blanket of comfort

I forgot the worries that haunt

For those moments of heat,

There were no caveats.

I gave myself whole and soul

Without a second thought

With no objective or goal

I let you engulf me

Unquestioning and unbounded

To let this mystery unfold

I woke in the morning

To shade you from light

I left you a note

To tell you of my plight

I left.

Never to return

To be found again

When you want to get lost and regain

That tenderness of anonymity

That solace of unfamiliarity.

I hope you’ll be there next time

To hold me together

When my world collapses

And the gloom relapses.

Never Let Me Go

If I fall, don’t pick me up

Let me lie there for a while

Even if i cry out in pain

Let me lie there for a while

Even if I try and can’t move

Don’t pick me up

Be there if you wish to watch over me

But don’t pick me up

I’ll writhe in agony for a while

I’ll close my eyes and open them again

But I won’t stop trying

Even if I try and can’t move

Don’t pick me up

If I fall and you hold my hand

I’ll get up on my feet

I’ll smile and look at you

I’ll hug you with warmth

If I fall and you hold my hand

I won’t let go

I’ll walk ahead with aplomb

But I’ll still hold your hand tightly

I won’t let you go

If you fall, I’ll fall with you

We’ll muster strength to get up together

But I won’t let go

If you want to run

I’ll run with you

The day you decide you’ve had enough

To let go will be tough

If you want to let me go

Then let me fall

Don’t pick me up

Let me lie there for a while

Even if I try and can’t move

Don’t pick me up

Be there if you wish to watch over me

But don’t pick me up

I’ll writhe with aching memories for a while

But I won’t stop trying

If I fall and you pick me up

Never let me go.

Unguarded

I won’t guard myself

I’ll come unsheathed

For you to look at and admire

Uncovered, for the stare of your desire

I won’t guard myself

I’ll wait for the assault of your words

The ones which are said and unsaid

For you to hurt and devour

Unprotected, for this body is numb and nimble now

I want to see how much you feel and how

I want to be encapsulated

I want to surrender

To see if you’ll accept

This state of absolute being

I won’t guard myself

I’ll stand and watch

Every muscle you move
every breath you breathe

I’ll stand and watch

If you run for the hills again

Or if you cement your place

I’ll stand and watch

If you come closer than close

Or if you sit perched up afar at a distance

I want to see what you want

I want to see what you don’t want

I want you to surrender

And let me encapsulate

Your trust, your becoming

To see if we’ll resist

This onslaught of the world

I won’t guard myself

I’ll come unsheathed

For you to look at and admire

Uncovered, for the stare of your desire

Let Me Be.

When the sky was falling down

I closed my eyes

What I saw, took me by surprise

Little did I know

That you would be there

Waiting for me as if this was your place to be.

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In the warmth of the moment

A colorful mass whirled in my head

Where it took me

I didn't care.

All that there was to know

Is that you are here

There is no despair.

How is it possible for this magic to be?

No reasoning

No doubts

A fact for all to see.

How come I did not see this coming?

Was I really that blind?

Or was it a feeling so much a part of me

That I never realised?

The sky is falling down today

Everything is falling apart

Somehow, it is only today that things make sense

Somehow, there is an evanescence

Because today, for the first time

I tasted your essence.

My eyes are still closed

Closed to the chaos that won't let me go

Can't we stay in this comfort forever?

You wrapped around me

and me hidden under?

Don't let me open my eyes

Lest the magic be scattered

Wait, just for a few more centuries

Let me learn the plains

The contours

The swirls

The mess of you, of me

Please let me be.

The sky is falling down

While my eyes are closed

Lost in this colorful mess

Shh...

Let me be.

A day with you

This is no poem, no rhythm, no rhyme           

It's what i feel

It's what i want you to feel             

A love so warm that it melts a stone

A stone of a heart which you claim to own.

When you open your eyes I don't know what you see

But today let me show you the world as it is to me.

Sunshine falls on my face to wake me up

To tell me that it's time for me to buck up.

It's a new day

It's a new beginning

It's another reason for me to live

Cause this gives me an opportunity

To come closer to you                                                            

To feel your warmth

To touch your hands

And realize that it's not all that bad.

When I see that smile on your face

Somehow, this world feels like a better a place.

When i feel your warmth against mine

Somehow, every moment then on seems more divine.

Together we can walk on rainbows

Together fruits of joy, we sow

Walking steps to match yours

Ready to catch you when you fall.

We bicker like a bunch of hungry cats

You scratch me but I bite you.

In the end, I'll come to you

As you lick my wounds so shall I too.

Pockets full of chocolates I stole

Gluttony queen that you are

You ate them whole.

The chocolate smeared on your nose

Made me crinkle my toes.

How can you be so adorable?

Gosh! I feel like locking you

Within the wraps of these arms.

Then the day comes to a close

I stood there alone on the terrace

As the moon arose.

While gazing at stars

I got a message from you

Which said -

"Look at the moon

It has a message from me to you

No matter where you go

I'll always be there

To watch over you

So don't be scared

you are mine only."

Bubbles burst inside my heart

I close my eyes and wait for another day to start.

Everyday you give me a reason to laugh

Everyday I wait for those bubbles to burst

A passion for life singes inside

Somehow, you do a magic that quenches that thirst.

It's beautiful

It's crazy

It's all this and much more.

Under My Skin

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Mushy marshlands of grass under my feet

Running after you to beat the heat

Yellow butterflies twirling round my head

Between our fingers was tied a strong thread

This was the first time you got under my skin.

Noisy classmates bickering over books

Sitting next to you on a bench with hooks

You tried to pull out my skirt which was stuck

Everyone was whispering, yet you didn't give a sock

That appalling humiliation got under my skin.

It was the day I stood first in class

I rushed to you first, to celebrate with a glass

Your hands were nestling the curls of her hair

That moment I realized, little did you care

A flurry of hot tears flowed down my cheeks

Yet again, you got under my skin.

Was walking down the aisle

As the man of my dreams welcomed me with a smile

As we were exchanging our wedding vows

I glimpsed across to notice your dejected brows

The priest confirmed for everyone's approval

You faked a smile that was oh-so-jovial

Not surprisingly, you got under my skin.

A season of spring and winter had passed

Fate had us attending a funeral mass

Melancholy of a widow, no one could guess

But the warmth of your hug did not let me be depressed

You were here with me again 

I was so glad this time, that you got under my skin.

We sat on a swing in Central Park

Rays of sunlight danced on our mark

Breezy winds caressed my grays

Wrinkled hands held on to each other through rough days

Your head rested on my shoulder

That is when it hit me - 

You were destined to be under my skin.

Leaving behind

When the bricks were falling down..

When the muck was swallowing you whole..

I saw the glimpses of dark coal..

that darkened your skin through to soul..

The stench of the infection..

the extent of the defection..

was unbearable to my sight..

to an elegant body like yours.. 

it just didn't feel right.

Holding on to my breath..

Sorting through the confusing mess..

i reached out to your dress..

An empty cloth was in my hands..

mean while your body was covered in sands.

Deep in thought, you lay still...

and my heart rate jumped up the hill..

I tried pulling you out of it..

little did i know that this is what you wanted.

Little did i know that..

Being in this shallow devastation..

was a form of your salvation.

Yelps of suffering were hard to neglect..

but you said that you have no regrets.

This is not my dream, i thought..

You have to let me go..

to chase the dreams that i sought.

Taking one step at a time..

Turning away and leaving behind...

the cries that deafened down.

Taking one step at a time..

was harder than sipping grime...

Guilt was never a permanent companion..

So he left as i was leaving you behind.

The sun was shining in the horizon..

there was a fire left to beckon..

Taking one step at a time..

this time, i knew it was not a crime..

to leave something behind.

Fierce!

She held me in her shadow..

anger seething into a boiling yellow..

her bright eyes cast a glance..

no gestures.. no words..

the vibes conveyed but one thing..

she is fierce!

Unnerving anticipation...

my heart tiring with palpitations..

"What is she going to say?"-

that question ran through my head..

much to my dismay!

Yet lips were sealed..

Yet issues remained unhealed.

Her gaze said the unsaid..

No apologies could deceive..

a heavy heart that was the thief.

A strand of her hair fell on her face..

my fingers moved without any haste..

tucking it behind her ear...

making amends without any fear.

Seizing the moment..

Ending the torment..

Hands around her waist..

Nudged her towards my chest..

Sorrowful eyes met her brilliance..

a halo of warmth spread around us like fragrance.

She listened to my heart beat..

she put her feet on my feet.

Just when the nerves settled..

the silence before the storm was rattled..

Punches were blown all around..

left.. right.. center.. up and down!

Her cat like claws dug deep..

yet it was affection and not rejection that heaped.

She held me in her arms..

her love exalting into a deep purple..

her affable eyes burst into tears..

no gestures.. no words..

the vibes conveyed but one thing..

her love is fierce!!